Baby Blues

Our little guy is so incredibly grumpy...poor baby has enough issues with his spina bifida and hydrocephalus and now he has acid reflux and constipation.  The doctor wrote a prescription for Zantac for the reflux which is a fairly harsh drug so we gave it to him for about a week and didn't seem to see any change so stopped.  I don't know if I should still give it to him or not.  It is so incredibly hard being a new mom with a special needs baby and not having a clue how to deal with a newborn let alone a newborn that has issues.  I never know if I should be more concerned because his fussiness could be related to more fluid in his brain, if it's his tummy because of reflux or constipation or who knows what else.  All I know is that him not sleeping at night for the past week is really taking a toll and I am about to lose my mind!  Poor little guy just cries and cries.  Wouldn't it be nice if there were some magic way to translate their cries and know what they need.  I know there are stupid apps out there that claim to do that but I want an accurate reading haha.  Hopefully the new pediatric nurse's suggestion of  adding prune juice to his formula helps his constipation and helps him not be so fussy.  I just feel bad for him and like he doesn't even like his mommy.  He seems to do fine when he is with my mother-in-law during the day but anytime he is at home he just gets super grumpy.  It makes me feel like I am doing something wrong.  I know, poor me and my pity party...sometimes I just need to vent.  It all seems worse since Landin is at Scout Camp all week which has left me alone to deal with Peytin's grumpiness plus got laid off this morning (which is a blessing in disguise because I feel like I need to be home with my baby for awhile to try and connect with him but still a little stressed about finances with all the medical bills).  Here's to hoping things get better really soon for Peytin and my sanity.